I asked for some feedback from some people & someone told me

they felt my blog was negative. Our William is a blessing Autism

or not. He's taught me patience & perseverance while also raising

me up to a higher level than I ever thought possible for myself.

Its been 2 years since Will was diagnosed but I won't deny that

I didn't feel discouraged, scared, unprepared, guilty (like I did

something wrong or ate the wrong thing) at first. I was nervous

that I wasn't a strong enough person to raise a Special Needs

Child. I'm okay with saying that out loud.



I'm not perfect and its not always easy guiding our son through

this journey but God has entrusted this Angel to me & I will do

all I can for as long as it takes. I'm thankful each day that I've

met the kind, generous, experienced fellow warriors that I have

already. They bolster me up & renew my faith in the possibilities.



Upon Will's diagnosis, my husband & I went through our

individual struggles with wrapping our minds around what it

meant for Will & our family as a whole. I don't think there's

anything wrong with admitting your true feelings so that

others can better understand that how they're feeling is also

okay & acceptable. I've never been one of those moms that

made it seem as though there wasn't a thing I didn't love

about motherhood either. I'm honest. Hey you know what....

sometimes its not always fun having an audience while you

try to visit the rest room. I think that's true for most moms

& I'm okay saying that too.



Personally, I think its negative when I hear about families out

there not doing all that they can to help their kids. I read, research,

ask other parents and seek out any and all experts I can find.

I don't think its negative that I helped several parents in my

daughter's Preschool class exempt their kids from vaccinations;

or that I'm not shy about sharing our story & introducing my son

to new people so we can help foster education & tolerance. I won't

deny either that its a concern of mine that our "typical" child will

feel left out or become too much of a caretaker as she gets older.

I try to channel her desire to help into the pursuit of a dream of

becoming a Doctor or Therapist. She vacillates between being a

Veterinarian & "an Autism Doctor". Heck maybe she could be the

Vet for a barn full of Hippotherapy horses when she grows up.



This blogging thing is all new to me but I felt like I had experienced

something people could connect with and learn from just as I have

from the more experienced parents of Autistic & "typical" children.

We've started trying more biomedical interventions to go along with

PECS, OT, PT and Speech. If funds were unlimited then we'd be

doing Hippotherapy, B12 shots, HBOT, GFCF diets, etc. Funds

are limited but we're also working on that and Will is going to have

what he needs.



I hope you'll come back again as I share Will's story with you &

let you see what works for our family. Maybe another family

could also be helped in the process too.